Things that make you go HHMMMMM

I have not written in a few days, basically since I wrote “feeling miserable.”  And that is because I have been really feeling miserable.  Whatever bug I have has knocked me on my butt and the last two days I don’t think I have spent more than about a couple hours out of bed.  So when you are lying in bed for long periods of time with OTC cold meds and cough syprup w/codiene playing with your head, you think about strange things.  You know those things that make you go hmmmm.  Two of these keep popping into my head:  Bollywood and Heaven.

I think the reason I am thinking about Bollywood is the ASB kids at school picked it for this year’s Homecoming theme.  What is up with this?  What the heck is “Bollywood”?  If I picked up Webster’s famous dictionary would I find it listed?  I did google it on Wikepedia but is that really a dictionary? And why would you pick something that is considered “Indian cinema” for your homecoming theme?  How do you decorate the gym for this?  A fake Taj Mahal?  Dancing girls in Sari’s plastered on the wall?  I just don’t get it.  It is truely one of the things that make me go hmmmm.

Heaven, now here is an interesting subject and I am sure the reason it has been on my mind so much is that when you are are sick and lying in bed for hours you have that little fear gnawing at the back of your mind that maybe you have something fatal and you are going to die from this bug.  Anyway, what is like in heaven, really.  Are the streets lined with gold?  Clouds everywhere for you to sit on?  Is there one big house where everyone lives with God like the Bible says or do we all have our own little condo in one big neighborhood?  And once we get up there, who do we live with?  My folks are divorced, both remarried and my dad and step dad are in heaven.  (or at least I hope they are)  So what happens to my mom when she dies does she go live with my dad who was her first husband?  Will my stepdad be their neighbor with his first wife and my stepmom and her first husband their neighbors on the other side?  How does all this work?  My stepmother remarried after my father died but she has divorced him so where does he fit into this?  This whole divorce thing and heaven is really weighing on my mind because in my family, both my maternal grandparents were divorced and had remarrid before I was even born.  On that side I had 2 sets of grandparents growing up.  And being divorced myself what will happen to me? My ex is on wife #4, how will we all fit in at his house? You have to admit, it is very perplexing.

And here is where it really gets crazy…..if you die as a child do you ever grow up in heaven? When your folks get there do they recognize you, do recognize them?  And while we are on this subject who do children live with when they go to heaven?  Do they live in God’s house like a big orphanage only with heat, blankets and good food?

Do we go shopping in heaven and get food or do we grow it our selves or do we just open the fridge and there it is?  Are there fridges in heaven? And if there are do they have Maytag repair men in heaven? Ok that maybe have been a little silly but don’t you ever wonder about this stuff? My friend Mary said when she goes please put a $100 bill and a Nordstrom’ shopping bag in her coffin, just in case.

It is my hope that I will see all my family members who have gone before me when I get to heaven, and there will family gatherings with great food and marathon pinochle games.

Am I going crazy?  Is it the cold meds? or maybe the germ is attacking my brain afterall.  Not really sure but just know this in one of those things that make me go HHHMMMM.

B